Thursday, June 01, 2006

Haven't post in a while explanation...

Having survived the end rush last semester I now have time to reflect. What I am discovering in my day to day activity is a lack of buzz... While going to school, working full time, and teaching, I was constantly on the move, ready for another project, ready to sleep at the end of the day, ready to excel in new and exciting projects, ready to relish in the free time that seemed elusive and out of reach. I have that free time now and it's painful. I don't know what to do. My writing has suffered. My reading has slowed.

I have an internal alternator, constantly generating energy from activity (both physical and mental). When that energy stops, my generative momentum slows. I miss the buzz: that feeling of movement and flow. I miss being challenged on a daily basis.